Yes, I definitely have the right to be upset, but I shouldn’t let this get to me. It might not have been perfect for me, even though I know I was great for it. I shouldn’t dwell on what wasn’t mine in the first place, and just keep it where it is, rather than hope that it’s going to be different somehow, when I know it isn’t. I need to get over it, push forward, and stop caring what everyone thinks. I know my passion, and no one can really tell me otherwise. There’s plenty of opportunity for me.
NO RISK, NO GAIN.
I really need to stop feeling this way. It fucking sucks. I don’t even know why I’m being such a kawawabear. Negative thinking stops here.
Now I’m just hoping that I won’t be disappointed.
I’m stuck in a decision. I feel like something is holding me back so I can stay around, yet something is telling me to just go for it, experience something new (once again). I don’t know what I want just yet.
What stopped me before? Nothing.
What’s stopping me now? I have no idea.
It’s not a big decision (I think?) but am I willing to somewhat start over, or build my ground? I don’t even know if I’ll get in. I hope I get in. We’ll see. I have some thinking to do.
Long term goal: December 2013.