It is what it is.

1. I need to clean my room
2. I don’t know where my external hard drive is (I thought I brought it with me, but I don’t have it, so it might be back at home in a box somewhere in storage)
3. I NEED A PAYING JOB
4. I’m super sad I’m not going to be with the people I wanna be with for my 21st
5. The USPS pisses me off soooo much
6. I’m not happy with my physical appearance
7. I fucking hate it when skinny people say they’re fucking fat. NO YOUR FUCKING NOT.
8. I hate hearing the worry and struggle in my parents’ voice
9. I miss the California weather
10. I feel like I’m too busy with work to enjoy NY (I need to keep reminding myself why I’m here)
11. YOU HAVE IT EASY. STOP COMPLAINING.

I don’t think I’ve felt like this in a while. ugh. 

spending money. 

Unless I get a job, money will only be used for metrocard and sometimes food.

… I can’t spend any money. Funds are low, I have no job (yet).

Starving student/intern begins now.

So this is gonna be the REAL NY BLOG, because I have been putting off for so long, and I actually have time to sit and type :) holla!

This coming Tuesday will mark my first full month here in NY. I’m still getting used to the weather, but it’s all been so amaze-balls. I’ve said before that I’m in love with my org. When I first arrived I was welcomed by all the staff, and I felt more comfortable as they found out that I will be here until December, so they all said that they would definitely have work for me to do, and that they are looking forward to working with me. It was good vibes all around. I met the students that I would be working with through the Summer Intensive Community Theatre School, called Youth Onstage! and I have definitely grown attached to them within 3 days. I’ve been doing intern work also; making outreach phone calls, research, and sharpening pencils (haha). But honestly, I do look forward to coming to work everyday. It’s only been about 3 weeks since I started with them, and I freaking love it. I can’t wait to see what else is in store with this org, and I’m definitely taking a liking to all the people I’m meeting. 

Since I’m off Fridays-Sundays, I’ve been taking the weekend to go exploring around the city (Manhattan, Brooklyn, Queens, etc.) and man, it gets kinda difficult. It’s been getting easier figuring out the subway system, but on weekends the trains run different routes because they are doing construction on some tracks, so I get confused sometimes when a train isn’t running, or if I have to get off at a stop to make a transfer. It’s cool though, because on my way home (during the week as well) there are performers in the subway cars doing dances, spoken word and playing drums and it’s always a pleasure to see stuff like that. Most of the performers ask for donations. My favorite performance so far has been these group of boys who did a really good spoken word piece as I was going home. It’s really nice to be able to enjoy something like that especially after a long day. 

I really love the fact that I can take the subway and walk everywhere. It’s nice to enjoy the day like that. Brooklyn is really great. I love living here. It’s always filled with people walking around in the streets, and people don’t try and bother you if you don’t bother them. In California, it would be hard to walk down the street without someone trying to creep on you. Here, a nice wave or a “good evening” is cool, and that’s that. I’m really enjoying it here. I’m still in the process of finding a job (cross your fingers for me) because living here is putting a pretty big dent in my wallet :(. I really just want a job so I can save to see a Broadway show, get a tattoo, do tourist things and see Ariel and Kelsey in New Orleans sometime before I head back to Cali. I just need a paying job. 

I’m still in-between feelings about my new hair. I feel like I look older, but I’m kinda glad for doing something different, especially since it’s so hot here. It’ll grow out. 

I miss home. More-so the weather and the people. I have confirmed (more or less) my first set of visitors! My western housies will hopefully be here at the end of August! Woots! I can’t wait :). 

It is beautiful outside, aside from the 90 degree+ weather, I’m slowly getting used to it. Working with my org has been amaze-balls. I look forward to it every morning, even though it’s an 11-hour day four days a week. More recently though, I get to come in late because we have another intern that will be here until August. HOLLER. I really love working with my org. LOVE. It’s such a good feeling. 

I found a Filipino market. Well, I didn’t find it, rather one of the people that works at me org told me where I can go, haha. So I went to Queens today to check it out. I was really excited to see what it was like, and I was thinking of all the stuff I was gonna buy. I get there, and it’s a very small corner store with Filipino stuff. There’s no produce section or meat/fish section. It was smaller than I anticipated so I was kinda disappointed. Anywho, I went up the street to Red Ribbon to have lunch and buy mamon :). I ended up not getting what I wanted to originally, but I’m gonna head back tomorrow to walk around more since it kinda started sprinkling today after I had lunch. 

Oh, and I got a haircut :). I decided to just get a trim when I left my apartment this morning. But when I got to West Village to find the barber shop, I had changed my mind and wanted to go short. I got to the Barber’s and told him I wanted it short, and he just snipped away. I got kinda nervous because he didn’t cut my hair the way other people had done in the past. Right before he cut my hair though, he was all “You know a lot of hair will be coming off right?” ha, yea I did, but I said that it’ll grow back and he should cut it before I change my mind. And that he did.

I’m liking it so far.

and it didn’t post.

I’ll do it soon.

I was already sweating MAJOR BUCKETS.

It’s 9:30pm, and it’s still the same.

I’ve been complaining about the heat a lot, my bad. But really? It hit 102 today, and when I got to work, the AC wasn’t working. But… it got fixed just before it hit 102. thank goodness.

Got an apartment. :).

pics and blog post later.

Meeting with my supervisors tomorrow. I’m a mix of excited and nervous, but I’m glad to be finally starting! My meeting is at 11am, but I’m leaving my aunt’s house around 8am-ish because it takes about an hour and a half to get to the city from where my aunt lives, and I’m allowing time for myself to get lost, miss the bus, eat a hotdog, etc. I’m gonna have a long day tomorrow, but I’m so excited to see what’s in store :).

oh, and housing, please come thru for us? Thanks :).

You. 

Fucking.

SUCK.

Kameron and I looked at the apartment we wanted to rent out and we fell in love. Too bad we’re competing against 3 other folks. We need good vibes and, more importantly, we need this apartment!

NY, you have been bringing me all sorts of emotions, ups and downs. Stop that ;)

can I get my financial aid already?! Damn. 

… that I have HELLA shit to do before I leave. Like, HELLA. I need to start making my days at home more productive, ‘cause since I’ve been here I have just been trying to set plans to see folks and soak in the city before I head off. I have a few days left and this is what I still need to do:

• FIND HOUSING
• see grandma
• unpack/re-pack (sort through the stuff I brought)
• buy stuff I’ll need
• pepper spray/switchblade shopping with papa
• put my stuff in storage
• Carson for Kri’s graduation party
• Brunch with Taz and Domes Monday
• visit with Cat’s parents
• clean my car
• conference call with supervisor in NY

and all before Monday night because my flight is early Tuesday morning. I think I might have to skip out on some things, but I would really hate to. 

NY in 4 days. HOLLA.

I’m so anxious right now. I think it’s mostly because I’m afraid that what I plan to take with me back to SD won’t all fit in my car. The other part is that I don’t have housing for NY yet. If all my stuff doesn’t fit, I have no idea what I’m going to do cause I’m pretty sure I’m maxed out on leaving stuff at folks’ places. Aiyaaaaa! I’m flustered and anxious, and I still need to go to the mall to get clear studs. 

*kawawa*

I’m taking a break from packing so I can figure out how all this shit is gonna fit in my car, and to see if I can actually leave some stuff here that I won’t really need. I should have started packing EARLIER, but we all know how that goes ;). Anywho, CONGRATS c/o 2010!!!! So proud of all of you, and I’m sorry I couldn’t make it to all the grads. Also, a special congrats to my cousin Roelle, who just graduated from UCSB this past weekend :).

So everyone keeps asking me if I’m excited to go to NY, and if I found housing. Honestly, at this point, I’m soooo scared. In the midst of wrapping up my last few days at work, watching the seniors graduate, saying “good-bye” to folks who went home, and talking about what I’m going to be missing this summer/fall, I didn’t actually realize how long I’d be gone for. And, since I don’t have housing, I’m almost freaking out :(. I am excited to be in someplace new and experience a different coast, I’m just scared. Normal right?

Anyway, getting back to packing. holla at me if you’d like to help/watch/discuss what I can store at your place ;)