I’ve been in a constant battle with myself as to what I want to do with my life, with myself. I had a conversation with an old co-worker of mine and he, like everyone else I vent my concerns to, told me “You’re young. You have time.” I guess. I can’t help but feel like I don’t have time.
I’m struggling with my career path. Rejections are starting to fester within me, telling me “You’re not good enough, JQ. Sorry.” It’s so rough. I’m having such a hard time believing in myself and staying true to what I want to do. I WORK SO FUCKING HARD, I WANT IT SO BAD, I’M STILL NOT GOOD ENOUGH. I’m no where near where I wanted to be, and I’m starting to question if I’ll even get close.
Maybe it’s the timing. Wrong place, wrong time. Maybe I need to step back and re-evaluate my goals and my future. Leap of faith? Maybe. But damn, what else am I supposed to do?!
This was something I read somewhere, I wrote it down and I try to keep it in mind:
“Do you think the world would change for the better, if we just showed each other acts of kindness? It can be as small as saying “Good Morning” to a stranger, offer to carry groceries to someone in need, call/write a thank you letter to someone whose made an impact in your life - to bigger things like volunteer your time to help the elderly, less fortunate, donating money to a cause you believe in, etc. I strongly do and as a follower of Einstein, “Only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile” this quote sums it up. The more fortunate we are, I feel the bigger the responsibility we have in this society. ”